I’ve often thought of myself as one that is not easily fooled. Ever since I can remember, I’ve always felt like I have strong willpower. It might explain the reason why I seem to be able to remember every little detail when I’m drunk or under some other type of influence. I find it odd when people don’t remember details about their night because they were so blasted. Even when you remind them that they whipped out their package last night in front of everyone on the karaoke stage, they still don’t seem to recall it. It’s like they were possessed by alcohol.

I guess I’ve always felt in control of myself, that I create my own life, that all decisions and results and conclusions are all things that I at least took a part in creating. This is why I don’t believe very much in fate, in the sense that my fate was already set in stone for me when I was born. Fate can mean that other external factors that are out of my control can lead me toward a certain doom. Nuclear holocaust, for example. But on the other hand, I, as an individual, could have built a bomb shelter in preparation and hid there for 10,000 years until the radiation dispersed.

I like to believe that I have at least some control of my own fate, that things that happen to me, I played a part in it. Things don’t happen because it was “meant to be”. However much of a coincidence it might seem to be, I played some part in creating the situation by making decisions, which I do everyday. There are things that are out of my control, but I can push it toward the way I want it by manipulating the environment around me…kinda like forming a barrier to protect myself.

Anyway, the next post will have sexy pictures of sexy girls. I promise.